Entry 14.

yeah, tomorrow it's 2nd February. i felt uneasy this year, probably bad luck. School events, half day school too. well, i knew it's going to be fun as a help out community in my class. hopefully, perhaps enjoying it.
yeah, today. probably ran into a wrong door. sigh got bitten up. as then, that story wasn't that easy as you through. tears flow down. well, still doesn't solve anything. lucky i was given another 1 month to get that staff back. not sure that will come next.

 fate.

well, i can't believe. I'm a failure, i can't even solve anything by my self.
what was my destiny? being a good person lending a mystical helping hand once? well, i can't see what on my future. perhaps even fortune teller dose? what else will happened in my life? sometime, my attitude is passed down from my parents. what can i do to avoid? it just like making thing worst sometime.
well, another way. i know i have a good responsibility towards people. but that doesn't means to abuse me.
sometime its just unfair got treated negatively. everything takes time, but sometime i have put in trillion of afford to change it. but,

fate.

not much thing can change.

I'm brave enough to said. i have change alot. but just because my voice lets you thinks that im not mature enough.. doesn't means that.

i know, i looks childish. can't control my anger. but all i can do, takes time. understand more.
understand about 30% percent psychological. even how strong you are. you are always weak.

why are human always looks so negative?
sometime, i don't really wish to be bad person. i have changed from a thieve into someone who willing to give hopes.. who im i?

what is my next road?

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