this year, it really a time concern of everything. 2 more weeks its on my common test day.
well, this day. i really can't think of what i really can do for my on self and the study i having now.

avoiding troubles but, it just really hard to freely avoiding it. something it really made me and the others misunderstood, end up i can just only give out and say sorry or just got bitten up.

its my lucky really just a fate?...

it really hard to understand each others or avoiding something that it really unwanted.
in my life, everything its making me hurt my self. and abusing my on power on something. it just like, i have mute my self but while other are enjoying.

humanity is just a black & white. they want you to be this. it just a means or must.
someone to getting to control you or something they want you to be and make them they like you be.
where is freedom to my self. it really unfair on everything. by solving something that is impossible. last teachers or guardian have to help to solve it. but, on the other side of your enemy will just an fear and violence that physio you not telling anyone or wants you to died.
no one step a side by creating peace but destroying. sometime. you did something they others doesn't like. people will against you, but when the side create something that you doesn't like you can't control them.

sigh, by solving something. it hard to imaging it.

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11th feb. [ The answer ] 11pm.

The fate it just an unlucky that happened on my brothers.
My family, concern. as we do. my brother is on a physicality unable through his life time future now.
His in danger and possible near death anytime.
2 more weeks, before the common test. while family problem continues. Stressful, housework and an dis- ability which needed helps. my mum wanted helps from me. i just not sure what i can do.

hope fate could turn white. hope for everything.